I sat down to write this blog today and realized I had nothing to work with. No ideas, no inspiration. Zilch. Nada. The sun was shining, the birds were singing, and the forecast storm hadn’t materialized. I’d seen the hummingbird at the feeder (so delicate and ethereal), and some of the flowers in the balcony pots had opened overnight. There was lots of reason to feel good about the day, yet I was low. And when I’m low, creativity is nowhere to be found.
So I sat on the couch for a while, willing the Muse to bless me with a theme for today’s blog. Nothing.
I walked over to the sliding doors and looked out on the beautiful scene – trees swaying in the wind, baby ducks playing hide and seek among tall grasses, the pond sparkling in the sunlight. Big sigh. What should I do about this heavy layer of despair?
I decided it was time to get out of my apartment. When I’m feeling down, the best solution is some form of exercise and being with people, although all I really want to do is curl up alone and mope. The hardest part is getting myself out the door, so I resolve that by giving myself a task or goal. I needed to go to the bank, so that meant a walk to a nearby mall.
As I walked, I began to notice all the activity going on around me. Road construction (in summer, that’s a given!) on neighbouring streets, mothers pushing baby buggies, cars coming and going (where are they heading?), students on bikes or walking, listening to music on ear pieces. The world was vibrant and alive.
I took a short cut through a townhouse community, past gardens growing beside front steps. I noticed bright orange tiger lilies blooming along with deep yellow day lilies. I saw a few lingering roses beside spirea bushes with rich pink flower heads. A tiny chipmunk scurried up some stairs and disappeared into a hole in the ground.
Even the mall was a beehive of activity with sidewalk sales, people sitting on benches licking ice cream cones, or at outdoor cafes sipping coffee and tea.
With every step, I took a deep breath, bringing more oxygen into my lungs. To do so, I had to stand taller and as my posture shifted, so did my mood. I liked the feeling of my feet and legs working hard to propel me forward, and the power of the wind blowing in my face. The sun felt warm on my back, and I noticed the gentle relief of the cool shade offered by trees along the sidewalk.
Each movement, breath and experience along the way made me realize that I belong to a bigger world. I’m not alone, unless I choose to be. And I have the power to change the quality of my day simply by stepping outside my door, and outside my self.
And, would you look at that? I’ve just written today’s blog!
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